Wednesday, December 28, 2005
MEhehe! Guek da gunting rambut dong. best.. Nak tgk? Meh sini jumper kak jun. Haha!Open! Open! Ena plan to have karaoke session dis New Year Eve. Mau join? Siler tinggal kan answer di tag board. Confirm... Me! Yan, Wok, Ena, Uzy, Pezal. Any takers? Ali & Fiko.. Mau join ngak? Or contact Ena. Guek give up jadi organiser. Hmm...
Destination: Chinatown
Time:3pm(kalo korang late, p mampos. aku tinggalkan. Aku attitude problem.)
Jgn byk soal. Nak ikut.. ikut ajer.. Jgn tanyer aku whether nenek aku ker datuk aku ikut. Aku tak layan. Kalo ader aku, confirm gerek punyer.. Jgn bimbang. Aku kan badut. Btol tak ali? i wish in confusion**
The past..
Friday, December 23, 2005
Oh help me.. I am bored at work.We all have a past, dont we? What is your past? What have u become now after experiencing some incidents or bad luck? How should we pat ourselves at the back to congratulate that you managed to overcome all obstacles?
I have always been a decent kid. I am simple-minded. As a small kid, I just expect my parents to kiss me everyday. They can just leave me alone but just dont 4get to kiss me. But I honestly feel that my childhood lacked of wat I need. In the end, I am very distant from my parents.
We rarely eat out together. We rarely have family outing. I refuse to go. I didnt noe that I bear such in depth hatred towards them till I started my tertiary education. The sad thing is I never even tell them anything about myself. But, of cos, others suffer much worse family ties experience.
I knew I had to stop it. The feeling and pure hatred does not solve any problem. Time and again I tried. Start slowly. Since I get along so well with my friends, I decided to just talk to mom like friends(of cos, it is not the same when I talk to my friends). It's difficult cos it seems that mom is feeling the same way like I do. We would quarrel. I had to go down for a smoke. But things start to be better. Much better. She loves it. I love it too.
I know that a major part of my life have been solved. I know that I didnt leave things and solve it when the time is ripe. But we wont know when it will ripe though.
When I think about it, my attitude evolve all thanks to my bestfriends at sec school & my poly friends. Lets give an example.
Nadiyah. Known her since primary 1. Married. She said "Y fight when u can solve it at the tip of ur finger? They are other big issues to work on. & Dont control too much." It's a common phrase for an advice. It's so innocent but it hit me hard on my head. She was giving her opinion when I mistreated Sweets. Problem solved. Sweets & me are still in love deep deep.
Fauziah. Known her since Poly Year 1. She taught me how to take things lightly. Verbal abuse are common language. Criticism are nothing worth any shit to be sad & sensitive about. It's been a long time my eyes really open wide when someone tried to make me feel useless. Except for my mom. Bring it on!
Yan Mayat. Known her since Poly Year 2. Along with the atriumz geng. That is something smile about. Her mouth also very pedas. So dFauziah/dYan= 0. So much about differentiation. They neutralise my sensitiveness.
Both Fauziah & Yan. They always make my day.
Last person. Amoy. She amazed me. I truly couldnt understand how strong her fortress of emotions work. Like I always say. She will automatically come to my head wen I am on the verge of giving up on my PR with my Main Contractor & consultant. Hehe.
In the end. They have all sculptured me into someone else. Someone that I am satisfied about.
Time is not sth to be trifled with. Do something abt it. They do not stretch their hands for you cos they have sth to do anyway. i wish in confusion**
Spell BORED
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Just send my parents downstairs. Tripping to KL. Gosh. I am bored la. HowHow? I will miss mummy, u noe.Everyday I would continue to irritate her. Bukan kurang ajar. It's purely to make her happy. I am the sunshine in her life! Cheh.. Mcm real. Like every mother n daughter, we would argue about the daughter's life. She would constantly nag at me to stop smoking. Go to the doctor to take medicine to cure my addiction. Alah.. Life.. U need to at least have one bad thing. I choose smoking. I never go clubbing. I never drink.. Hmm. Keyword. RARELY. I never take drugs(Yeah. Even medicine ones too. I cant swallow!EE). "Mom.. at least allow me to smoke la.." So we negotiate. & she never said anything. Now, she juz jeling at me wenever she smell cigarettes odour on me. I love you. My work is dat stressful. I need to smoke to look intellectual and wise. Hmm..
I am pampered in my own ways. I dread her wenever she nags. Yet I feel cool enuf. Y? Cos I feel as if I am a bad girl. Gangster. Haha! Attitude. Funky Funky. Mom says I am too bold. She cant take it herself. So how am I pampered..? Well.. Everytime she wants to go holiday.. I will sulk & say dat old ppl should juz stay at hm. Leave the hols to the kids. But I was the one who ended up getting too stressed up about her hotel booking and her travelling modes. Ler.. On the day she has to depart for her hols, I would nag at her back. Money for hotel. Money for spending. Blah2. I would make noise & pass her some extra money. Of cos.. she is so very very happy.
I am bored at hm alone now. My brother and sister went out with their partners. Where are u sweet? I boring tau. Aiyah. Darn.
My little sweetheart follow my parents too.. I am going to miss that little bestfriend of mine. Dad was worked up too. He always does anyway. So I had to coax him. Remind him dat he shld enjoy his time there. Not ask him to work at plantation. Hmm.. Bapak aku yang satu ni eh..
Trust me.. I am going to call them every 3 hrs. Reminder. Dont call my handphone. It's with mom. It's funny to dial your own hp no. though. i wish in confusion**
Am I too too Old?
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
I am boring I ges.. I thought that I can go clubbing every week once I started working. I cant afford. Time is something I cant afford. It's too expensive. So Y am I bringing this up?I want to dance. I want to dance till I perspire so much. I want to be cool. Haha! I want to the in-thing. I want to.. Screw u. I get lethargic very easy. My energy are too expensive.
My boss was asking me "Eh jun, u never go clubbing issit on ladies nite ah? Free u noe!"
"Eh boss, can i dont come work every thursday?"
So he juz kept quiet. I win again. Catch my drift?
It's funny though. I hate dark and crowded areas. My mood swing 360 if u dont give me space. It's ok. I rather not go clubbing again. I would prefer posh pubs. Aku da matured pe. Ader style. Elegant. Kayer. Rayer. Farker.
Oh. Oh yah! Last weekend we organised a chalet for ex-Starbuck-OB ppl. I cooked macaroni goreng garing garing and marinate the chickies. I can be a cook! Nice rite? I noe. Can see it from your faces. Overall, I am tired cos the kitchen and the bbq area was too damn far from each other. It's always dat kind of tired when u organising a chalet.
Going shopping during the weekend! Sorry.. u cannot join cos u're not invited! i wish in confusion**
New! New!
Sunday, December 11, 2005
This Saturday definitely is different from other Saturdays. Sweets go to Zouk out. Sponsored by me. Present for him la. Turn by turn la. Nanti duit dier confirm kena kikis aku rabak2. Let him go enjoy. He deserves it anyway. Let him have his space. Do wat he wants. Dance with any girl he likes provided that the girls are gorgeous. If not, letak dlm ais box.Yesterday, for the second time, I enjoy my time at the karaoke session. With my best pals, Pozi, Yan, Uzy and Ena. We screamed. We squealed. We danced. We laughed hysterically on the mike. Payback time, Zouk out! Hah! Gosh I feel great after shouting. Relieved. Went to Fish and Co. Talked. To Istana Park. Talked. To Plaza Singapura. We need to pee also u noe. To BK Liat Towers. Mit lan and wan dugong. Talked. Laughed. Den off to al-azhar with Pozi. Moy, Ali, Me & Pozi. Yan & lan juz come back from Yan's plc to take her DVD. Went off to Pozi plc for overnite DVD marathon. Wouldnt call it marathon cos we watched on Wedding Crasher. Talking about loads of crap. Kawin! Kawin! Kawin! The fear is unleashed.
Went I think about it, I went to almost the entire Singapore juz yesterday.
Changi->Hougang->Chinatown->Dhoby Ghaut->Orchard->Bukit Timah->Bukit Batok
I am crazy. Most important of all, I am shagged. Shagedelic baby. i wish in confusion**
Love Is a Fast song
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Last Saturday, destination: Esplanade..Ethnic Malay dance backed up with powerful and bold percussionist group. I am impressed. Hmm.. At the same time, I am surrounded by mats, minahs.. So gatal. Is dat how they appreciate the arts? (Sorry if I talk as if I am a hardcore fan of Arts)
This Saturday, destination: Esplanade
Omigawd!! LoveHunters! It's been so long. I call it lagu maghrib. I am in a trance. The days wen daddy was not too saint. The cowboy shirt and afro. Style la daddy aku! Adakah daddy kamu se-style seperti daddy ku?! The time when I was 13~15 where I had loads of "bf".. when I listen to their songs, I will cry. Not bcos the "bf" leave me. But bcos, I tot dats wat a fresh ex-gf shld do. So naive. Honestly, I don give a shit for those guys. Monyet! I am not hurt at all la ey.. but Sweets.. U tak tinggalkan I kan? Kesian I nanti. Dalah I tua.. tarak org nak. Kalo i lawa sgt tak per.. haiyah.
Did I tell you my Pozi is back?! oh Hoho! E world will not be peaceful again! And yday, I go to Bukit Timah to chill out with em.. Jauh sgt nak ckp lepak! Duit cab kena sepak $14. Tapi takper.. members nyer pasal.. i wish in confusion**