Friday, November 25, 2005
It is all Uzy fault. She make me do dis.. Now it's taking up most of my free time. Hehe.. I am beginning to adore David Eddings. "Who is to say what is only a story and what is truth disguised as a story?" Impressive enough. I am savoring every part of the story. If i got balls, confirm tu bola pat tekak aku. agaknyer da kat kpaler.I was "blog-surfing" juz now. Lots of things happening to lots of ppl. Of cos, we cant help but complain. Some complain they are flat-chested and flat ass. Hmm.. Have you ever think that e grp of ppl got their own complains? Dont worry too much. Most impt, smile. Smile! Smile! Sardin..
Of cos yan will complain y everyone comment abt her "bermuda triangle" nose. Nvm yan. Aku suker. love u. %P Tapi gambar ko amik mmg power.
Sweets aku mater sepet.. At least someone loves him.. DATS ME! Hahah.. He never complain rite.. So ok la.
For every ugliness in us, there is also goodness to cover up. I call it Yin and Yang.. i wish in confusion**
I *lick lick* this
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
If we had taken dis 8 years ago, will it change from a colour photo to a black and white?
"Aku nak sound kau steady bleh?" Is the first question that I thought was corny enough. I didnt have a clue that he like me. What do u think I say? This happens 8 years ago. We were naive. Didnt even think of marriage, let alone sth called serious relationship.
He is my first love. I m his first love.
We went thru a lot of things. I was too emotional. He was too laid back. I indulge in giving promises, he juz kept quiet but kept his promises. I am spendthrift. He is thrifty. No wonder Opposite attracts to each other. Tapi sayang.. I cantik.. U buruk.. Haha. okla okla.. tak tak.
Now I didnt even bother arguing with him. He has always never bother to argue. I spend most of our time cultivating love between us. I can still remember the first few years.. Countless arguments(one-sided only). Now.. I am proud to say dat I can count. Hmm.. Maybe nil.
Did I tell u dat we have a song? Yes. He wrote it. And perform it on stage at Room full of blues. I looked at him onstage. Like a psycho fan, i looked at him. Smiling.
Those eyes, those smiles
Only an angel can u be.
Yelah.. korang mesti pikir aku byk punyer angel aper.. Haha..
Aku raser aku da gatal ni. Maybe baby. i wish in confusion**
I'm sooo FREAKING PISSED!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
This entry my angst is rising every minute.And Yan.. Aku not referring to ko. Hehe. Some ppl. Definitely not u. Just to clarify ajer..
What e fuck?! So wat if WE are SHORT?! So wat if I blardy LOOK like a SMALL KID? In what way u mother farkers are better den me? I do not sit around and complain that I am SHORT! If I am not complaining, why should u BE?
There is such things called brains. What's the point of being tall but no brain/stupid? U heard the cliche Nobody's perfect? No? I understand.. Its too difficult for you to even read it maybe(See! I am understanding towards you). If U criticise me for being too short to notice or blah, blah, blah.. once.. twice.. thrice.. FYI.. Its not funny anymore. We call it irritating. Go find out other stuff u can diss me about.
1st-Before you even want to start scrutinizing me, go check yourself first.
2nd-Accept whatever I criticise u. If I can be a little patience being called 'short', u shld learn how to accept criticism.
My anger subsided a bit.. Not only I contribute and hurl abusive words at u.. but I am even noting it down in my blog. How U like me now?
And please.. pick someone of your own size/par. If you dare. Too bad.. You dont even manage to do it.
And please.. pick e right time. Its damn embarassing rite?
Dont test my patience. U might like to hear wat I have to say. Jantan/Betina sundal. i wish in confusion**
Project Management
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
If there is any project that is arduous, I will say to organise an Outing. You see, when I was in Poly, I have a lot of friends(I am not trying to point out my popularity here). Some of us are from other course, mostly in Electronics. They are over 30 of us in 1 group. So its hard to check who is free and who is not.2 years later, we have our own things/job to do. We call it life..
So this saturday.. we will have our Raya outing. We need a bus. Let me confirm who is going.. Amoy, Eldila, SuBlue, Suhada, Noy, Erniang, Uzy, Me, Sweets, Zack, E gf, Alip, Semut, Wan Dugong, Razak, Bob, Ahmad, Herdy, Yan, Azam & E gf. Its only us now..
Hopefully Pozi & Ena will be back. God knows how much I miss them. Plz be back both of u..
Our 1st visit will be to Arwah Zul's kubur. He will be happy to see us there. Little things I cld do. & those of u going.. u can bring your own Yassin.. Kalo tak tau bacer arab, bawakla version rumi yer.. Jgn step uztaz. By the time ko nak eja, kiter pun da nak jln. In short, Jgn step hero yer.. Tima Kasih. & PUHLEEZ wake up early! We all have a big issue with dat!
From the east to the west. Mcm nak p gang clash la.
On another note.. Since there is a bus, no need to bring ur bike/car. We noe u need to show off. But use a lil bit of common sense. I can fit all of u inside there. Jgn jadi manjen! If u still bring, I will not hesitate to play around with u all.. Yelah.. Minyak kan mura giler skarang yer... Ur wish is my blardy command.
%) i wish in confusion**
ABnormal days like dis..
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Lets juz say I am bored at work.. I made my boss take dis photo. I accomplished 2 things at 1 go..
My Engineer sitting behind me take dis while I am busy at work. He mms-ed my boss to show how hardworking I am when boss not around
After a hard day at work, I look like dis.. Dammit.
All the photos above are courtesy of my fun-loving colleagues.. I would like to extend my appreciation to them for my stay in Terminal 3. U suck! i wish in confusion**
Bored! Bored! Bored!
The aftermath of Hari Raya
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Monday: I hug my table. Its so empty! I miss work. (No la.. don bluff) All "As-built" was done. All e pakciks typical greetings to me.. "Slamat Hari Rayer, dik.. Duit tak passing?" Aku mcm pening sangat.. Eh pakcik.. u how old already? Ader hati panggil aku adik.. Nasib aku bukan laki. Secondly, they darn well know that I should be receiving the greens.. Aiyah! Some got the cheek to ask.. "Never ask for forgiveness huh?" I barely talk to you! What the hell is wrong with u ppl?! Aku mmg btol pening sgt.Tuesday: Engineer: Slamat Hari RAya!
Jun: Eh don wish onli la.. Pass the money also..
My angst compile cos I have to distribute money. I think. No la.. Ikhlas...
Wednesday: My table is full. Pack. Back-to-back.
Look at Sweeets.. My Fireman.. So cute.. Very Kinky, U noe.. Will U be my Gigolo?
i wish in confusion**Oh yes.. Hari Raya Again
Thursday, November 03, 2005
With slap of make-up (lets juz say a complete make up), I am beginning to feel like a little girl again. Getting so very excited about eye shadows, mascaras and other stuff. I feel like a barbie, but no doubt a short and oh-not-so-gorgeous Barbie. I am done! 1 full hour in front of the mirror. I pity her so.The baju kurung definitely sux. Its horrendous to me today. Wat was I thinking? But its a last minute thing. My expectation shouldnt b dat high. So I am done cos mom was shouting at the hall to take family photo.. Yucks.
Now I know y e photo look so blur. I suck in there.
Everyone in Slumberland
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I cant help but feel a bit sad tonite.. I am scared. Scared to open Pandora's Box. Nobody says it was easy. Nobody say it would this hard.I am lonely. I see Sweets so far away. I see all my friends all so so far away. I can feel the lump in my throat. I have always wanted to cry. Cry. Shout. Bang my fist on the table. I am sick of being strong. I am sick of being supportive. I hate being 23. I felt useless.
Can someone please forgive me? I dunno who. But I am sorry. i wish in confusion**